Do You Want This or That

PB2 vs. Peanut Butter

PB2 Powdered Peanut Butter

Serving Size: 2tbsp

Calories: 45

Fat: 1.5g

Sodium: 94mg

Carbs: 5g

Fiber: 2g

Sugars: 1g

Protein: 5g

Organic Peanut Butter

Serving Size: 2tbsp

Calories: 200

Fat: 15g

Sodium: 40mg

Carbs: 7g

Fiber: 3g

Sugar: 2g

Protein: 8g

Physical Hunger vs. Emotional Hunger

30 Day Thinspo Challenge

Day 1: Your stats:

Starting Weight: 135lbs / Current Weight: 125lbs / Goal Weight #1: 115lbs / Goal Weight #2: 110lbs

Day 2: How tall are you, do you like your height?

5ft 7in. I'm indifferent to my height for the most part since it can't be changed. Although I wouldn't mind being a couple inches shorter. 

Day 3: A picture of your thinspiration. What features do you like about this person?

I love that she still has nice, lifted breasts despite being so small. Her waist is perfectly pulled in and she has maintained lovely hips as well. 

Day 4: Your Greatest fears about weight loss
Obviously that I'll gain it all back after reaching my goal. 

Day 5: Why do you really want to lose weight? Are you doing it for you?
Mostly for the sake of fashion and all the clothes I wish I could wear without being self conscious. I've struggled with my body image for as long as I can remember. I've never felt comfortable. I'm tired of hiding. 

Day 6: Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.

I've binged twice since I started this journey. Both were horrible and disgusting experiences. I don't have a logical explanation. I've always felt like I eat too much and I'm not easily satisfied. I want more and more when it comes to junk and sweets. 

Day 7: Do your parents know you are trying to lose weight? Do they care?

No, I never see my dad. My mom minds her business and doesn't ask questions. Being an adult has perks of privacy, thankfully. 

Day 8: Your workout routine.

I started going to the gym almost everyday a couple weeks ago. I do 20-30 minutes of cardio and 30 minutes of weight training. 

Day 9: Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?

Not really. I've never been actually fat. I had a couple mean boys in middle school try to make remarks but they didn't have any real basis. I wasn't ever fat enough to be called out on it. My mother however has always liked to make fun of my stomach because she's insecure. 

Day 10: What was the hardest thing you gave up during this weight loss?

I'm a god damn sugar fiend 

Day 11: Your favourite thinspo blog and why.

Petitexbabydoll on Tumblr. She's just really cute and reminds me of a friend I have. She's what I want to be. 

Day 12: What do you normally eat?

Fruit, vegetables, eggs 

Day 
13: Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?

I'm not sure. I don't feel like I'm unhealthy but is 500 calories a day bad? Probably. 

Day 
14: What’s your UGW? When do you expect to reach it?

Day 
15: Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?

Day 
16: When did you first decide to lose weight?

Day 
17: Do you have an eating disorder?

Day 18: What food is your weakness?

Day 19: When is the last time you ate fast food?

Day 20: Favourite diet?

Day 
21: What are your clothing sizes?

Day 22: What was your lowest weight? How and why did you gain?

Day 23: Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?

Day 24: How do you feel about the terms pro-ana/pro-mia.

Day 
25: Have you ever purged? If you have, describe your first experience. 

Day 
26: What excites you most about reaching your UGW?

Day 
27: How do you deal with being around food?

Day 28: Do you want that gap between your legs? Why?

Day 
29: Your definition of beauty.

Day 30: 10 facts about you! And now, what are your stats?45re

Safe Foods & Calories

It's very helpful to have a kitchen scale on hand. Learn your portions and always measure your food!

FRUITS

Peach (5.3oz) = 60 calories 

Naval Orange (3 inch diameter, 6.5oz)  = 86 calories   

Plum = 35 calories 

Honeydew Melon (1 cup, cubed) = 56 calories 

Cantaloupe (1 cup, cubed) = 53 calories 

Strawberries (1 cup) = 53 calories 

Watermelon (1 cup, cubed) = 45 calories
Tomato = 26 calories
Apricot = 20 calories
Blackberry = 1 calorie
Clementine = 24 calories
Kiwi = 34 calories
Raspberry = 1 calorie
Cherry Tomato = 2 calories
Tangerine = 26 calories
Banana (6 inch) = 89 calories
Banana (7 inch) = 105 calories
Banana (8 inch) = 121 calories
Bananas (1 cup/150g, sliced) = 133 calories
Cranberries (1 cup, whole) = 46 calories
Lychee = 6 calories
Papaya = 67 calories
Passion Fruit = 17 calories
Pineapple (1 cup, chunks) = 82 calories
Small Apple (5.4oz) = 80 calories
Medium Apple (6.3oz) = 93 calories
Large Apple (8.1oz) = 120 calories
Grape = 3 calories
Pear = (1 cup, sliced) = 86 calories

VEGETABLES

Broccoli (4oz/113g) = 38 calories

Spaghetti Squash (1 cup) = 31 calories

Baby Carrot = 4 calories

Romaine Lettuce (1 cup) = 8 calories

Cucumber (1 cup) = 8 calories 

Carrots (1 cup) = 52 calories

Artichoke = 67 calories

Celery (three 5-inch stalks) = 9 calories 

Corn on the Cob (5in ear) = 70 calories

Cooked Corn (1 cup) = 140 calories 

Green Beans, boiled (1 cup) = 31 calories
Green Bean, raw (4 inches long) = 2 calories

Kale (1 cup) = 40 calories

Mushrooms (1 cup, chopped) = 20 calories 

Green Olives (10 large) = 45 calories

Raw Onion (1 cup) = 65 calories 

Cooked Peas (1 cup) = 115 calories

Spinach, raw (1 cup) = 7 calories
Spinach, boiled (1 cup) = 41 calories

Zucchini (1 cup) = 22
Acorn Squash, baked = (1 cup, cubed) = 115 calories
Asparagus, boiled (1 cup) = 40 calories
Boiled Carrots (1 cup, sliced) = 55 calories
Cauliflower (1 cup, 0.5 inch pieces) = 27 calories
Celery (5 inch stalk) = 2 calories
Collard Greens, boiled (1 cup, chopped) = 49 calories
Edamame (0.5 cup) = 127 calories
Green Peppers (1 cup, chopped) = 30 calories
Red Peppers (1 cup, chopped) = 39 calories
White Sweet Corn, boiled on cob (6 inch ear) = 83 calories
Yellow Sweet Corn, boiled on cob (6 inch ear) = 74 calories
Turnips, boiled (1 cup, cubed) = 34 calories
Turnip Greens, boiled (1 cup, chopped) = 29 calories
Pumpkin, boiled (1 cup, mashed) = 49 calories
Okra, boiled (1 cup, sliced) = 35 calories

DAIRY
Egg = 75 calories

Cheddar Cheese (1 slice) = 113 calories
Provolone Cheese (1 slice) = 98 calories
American Cheese (1 slice) = 104 calories
Swiss Cheese (1 slice) =106 calories

1% milk (8oz) = 104

2% Milk (8oz) = 122 calories
Chobani Greek Yogurt, plain (5.3oz) = 90 calories

PROTEIN
Tofu (1/2 cup) = 95 calories

PB2 (2 tbsp) = 45 calories  

Why I Want To Be Skinny

1. Crop tops

2. Low rise pants

3. Bikinis 

4. My modeling career

5. To post my first bikini pic on Facebook

6. To post my body on Tumblr 

7. Sheer clothes 

8. Tight clothes 

9. Sexy Halloween costumes

10. Sexy cosplays

11. To shock and scare them 

12. To sit without rolls

13. To stop sucking in after 10 years 

14. To prove I am in control

15. To show that I'm strong willed 

16. To feel pride when I look at my naked body in the mirror 

17. To cease feeling like I must hide

18. To hear, "you've gotten so skinny!"

19. To shock my exes 

20. To be a thinspiration and make others jealous 

21. To be able to sit without having to hide my stomach with a purse or my arms 

22. To be picked up like a little doll by anyone who tries 

23. To be like my childhood best friend

24. To rub my beauty in the face of my other best friend, who always talked down to me because she's insecure 

25. To make all my old male friends regret rejecting me 

26. So my mother can't take her insecurities out on me by poking fun at my stomach 

27. To feel comfortable for the first time in my life 

28. To get a belly button piercing and not have it reject again because my fat keeps rolling over and suffocating it 

Avoid Diet Drinks