Do You Want This or That

PB2 vs. Peanut Butter

PB2 Powdered Peanut Butter

Serving Size: 2tbsp

Calories: 45

Fat: 1.5g

Sodium: 94mg

Carbs: 5g

Fiber: 2g

Sugars: 1g

Protein: 5g

Organic Peanut Butter

Serving Size: 2tbsp

Calories: 200

Fat: 15g

Sodium: 40mg

Carbs: 7g

Fiber: 3g

Sugar: 2g

Protein: 8g

Physical Hunger vs. Emotional Hunger

30 Day Thinspo Challenge

Day 1: Your stats:

Starting Weight: 135lbs / Current Weight: 125lbs / Goal Weight #1: 115lbs / Goal Weight #2: 110lbs

Day 2: How tall are you, do you like your height?

5ft 7in. I'm indifferent to my height for the most part since it can't be changed. Although I wouldn't mind being a couple inches shorter. 

Day 3: A picture of your thinspiration. What features do you like about this person?

I love that she still has nice, lifted breasts despite being so small. Her waist is perfectly pulled in and she has maintained lovely hips as well. 

Day 4: Your Greatest fears about weight loss
Obviously that I'll gain it all back after reaching my goal. 

Day 5: Why do you really want to lose weight? Are you doing it for you?
Mostly for the sake of fashion and all the clothes I wish I could wear without being self conscious. I've struggled with my body image for as long as I can remember. I've never felt comfortable. I'm tired of hiding. 

Day 6: Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.

I've binged twice since I started this journey. Both were horrible and disgusting experiences. I don't have a logical explanation. I've always felt like I eat too much and I'm not easily satisfied. I want more and more when it comes to junk and sweets. 

Day 7: Do your parents know you are trying to lose weight? Do they care?

No, I never see my dad. My mom minds her business and doesn't ask questions. Being an adult has perks of privacy, thankfully. 

Day 8: Your workout routine.

I started going to the gym almost everyday a couple weeks ago. I do 20-30 minutes of cardio and 30 minutes of weight training. 

Day 9: Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?

Not really. I've never been actually fat. I had a couple mean boys in middle school try to make remarks but they didn't have any real basis. I wasn't ever fat enough to be called out on it. My mother however has always liked to make fun of my stomach because she's insecure. 

Day 10: What was the hardest thing you gave up during this weight loss?

I'm a god damn sugar fiend 

Day 11: Your favourite thinspo blog and why.

Petitexbabydoll on Tumblr. She's just really cute and reminds me of a friend I have. She's what I want to be. 

Day 12: What do you normally eat?

Fruit, vegetables, eggs 

Day 
13: Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?

I'm not sure. I don't feel like I'm unhealthy but is 500 calories a day bad? Probably. 

Day 
14: What’s your UGW? When do you expect to reach it?

Day 
15: Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?

Day 
16: When did you first decide to lose weight?

Day 
17: Do you have an eating disorder?

Day 18: What food is your weakness?

Day 19: When is the last time you ate fast food?

Day 20: Favourite diet?

Day 
21: What are your clothing sizes?

Day 22: What was your lowest weight? How and why did you gain?

Day 23: Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?

Day 24: How do you feel about the terms pro-ana/pro-mia.

Day 
25: Have you ever purged? If you have, describe your first experience. 

Day 
26: What excites you most about reaching your UGW?

Day 
27: How do you deal with being around food?

Day 28: Do you want that gap between your legs? Why?

Day 
29: Your definition of beauty.

Day 30: 10 facts about you! And now, what are your stats?45re

Safe Foods & Calories

It's very helpful to have a kitchen scale on hand. Learn your portions and always measure your food!

FRUITS

Peach (5.3oz) = 60 calories 

Naval Orange (3 inch diameter, 6.5oz)  = 86 calories   

Plum = 35 calories 

Honeydew Melon (1 cup, cubed) = 56 calories 

Cantaloupe (1 cup, cubed) = 53 calories 

Strawberries (1 cup) = 53 calories 

Watermelon (1 cup, cubed) = 45 calories
Tomato = 26 calories
Apricot = 20 calories
Blackberry = 1 calorie
Clementine = 24 calories
Kiwi = 34 calories
Raspberry = 1 calorie
Cherry Tomato = 2 calories
Tangerine = 26 calories
Banana (6 inch) = 89 calories
Banana (7 inch) = 105 calories
Banana (8 inch) = 121 calories
Bananas (1 cup/150g, sliced) = 133 calories
Cranberries (1 cup, whole) = 46 calories
Lychee = 6 calories
Papaya = 67 calories
Passion Fruit = 17 calories
Pineapple (1 cup, chunks) = 82 calories
Small Apple (5.4oz) = 80 calories
Medium Apple (6.3oz) = 93 calories
Large Apple (8.1oz) = 120 calories
Grape = 3 calories
Pear = (1 cup, sliced) = 86 calories

VEGETABLES

Broccoli (4oz/113g) = 38 calories

Spaghetti Squash (1 cup) = 31 calories

Baby Carrot = 4 calories

Romaine Lettuce (1 cup) = 8 calories

Cucumber (1 cup) = 8 calories 

Carrots (1 cup) = 52 calories

Artichoke = 67 calories

Celery (three 5-inch stalks) = 9 calories 

Corn on the Cob (5in ear) = 70 calories

Cooked Corn (1 cup) = 140 calories 

Green Beans, boiled (1 cup) = 31 calories
Green Bean, raw (4 inches long) = 2 calories

Kale (1 cup) = 40 calories

Mushrooms (1 cup, chopped) = 20 calories 

Green Olives (10 large) = 45 calories

Raw Onion (1 cup) = 65 calories 

Cooked Peas (1 cup) = 115 calories

Spinach, raw (1 cup) = 7 calories
Spinach, boiled (1 cup) = 41 calories

Zucchini (1 cup) = 22
Acorn Squash, baked = (1 cup, cubed) = 115 calories
Asparagus, boiled (1 cup) = 40 calories
Boiled Carrots (1 cup, sliced) = 55 calories
Cauliflower (1 cup, 0.5 inch pieces) = 27 calories
Celery (5 inch stalk) = 2 calories
Collard Greens, boiled (1 cup, chopped) = 49 calories
Edamame (0.5 cup) = 127 calories
Green Peppers (1 cup, chopped) = 30 calories
Red Peppers (1 cup, chopped) = 39 calories
White Sweet Corn, boiled on cob (6 inch ear) = 83 calories
Yellow Sweet Corn, boiled on cob (6 inch ear) = 74 calories
Turnips, boiled (1 cup, cubed) = 34 calories
Turnip Greens, boiled (1 cup, chopped) = 29 calories
Pumpkin, boiled (1 cup, mashed) = 49 calories
Okra, boiled (1 cup, sliced) = 35 calories

DAIRY
Egg = 75 calories

Cheddar Cheese (1 slice) = 113 calories
Provolone Cheese (1 slice) = 98 calories
American Cheese (1 slice) = 104 calories
Swiss Cheese (1 slice) =106 calories

1% milk (8oz) = 104

2% Milk (8oz) = 122 calories
Chobani Greek Yogurt, plain (5.3oz) = 90 calories

PROTEIN
Tofu (1/2 cup) = 95 calories

PB2 (2 tbsp) = 45 calories  

Why I Want To Be Skinny

1. Crop tops

2. Low rise pants

3. Bikinis 

4. My modeling career

5. To post my first bikini pic on Facebook

6. To post my body on Tumblr 

7. Sheer clothes 

8. Tight clothes 

9. Sexy Halloween costumes

10. Sexy cosplays

11. To shock and scare them 

12. To sit without rolls

13. To stop sucking in after 10 years 

14. To prove I am in control

15. To show that I'm strong willed 

16. To feel pride when I look at my naked body in the mirror 

17. To cease feeling like I must hide

18. To hear, "you've gotten so skinny!"

19. To shock my exes 

20. To be a thinspiration and make others jealous 

21. To be able to sit without having to hide my stomach with a purse or my arms 

22. To be picked up like a little doll by anyone who tries 

23. To be like my childhood best friend

24. To rub my beauty in the face of my other best friend, who always talked down to me because she's insecure 

25. To make all my old male friends regret rejecting me 

26. So my mother can't take her insecurities out on me by poking fun at my stomach 

27. To feel comfortable for the first time in my life 

28. To get a belly button piercing and not have it reject again because my fat keeps rolling over and suffocating it 

Avoid Diet Drinks

Eating Habits

Learn your portions and get them right.

Several small meals are always better than three regular meals.

Eat in the same place and sitting down every time if you can.

Drink a full glass of water 30 minutes before eating.

Cut your food up and slowly eat tiny bites. Your brain takes a while to register that you're full. If you scarf it down, you risk overeating.

If you have a problem with binging or self-control, always leave one bite on the plate to practice resistance.

If you have concerned family or room mates, always eat in front of them. It would be normal for them to assume you also eat when they aren't around.

Don't eat in front of the TV or while using your phone. Really focus on your food and every bite.

It helps to create little rules or rituals for yourself such as how many times to chew your bite, how many seconds between each bite, etc. Make your meals methodical.

Eat on a smaller plate. It tricks your brain into thinking there's more food on it. 

Brush your teeth after every meal. Not only are you contributing to your dental health, but you're killing your appetite. You'll be much less tempted to eat with that minty toothpaste taste in your mouth. 

Preventing a Binge

Always plan your meals the night before.

Examine your feelings. What triggered the urge to binge? How can you eliminate/prevent this next time?

Go look in the mirror. Strip down or lift up your shift. Look at that fat you're trying to lose. Tell yourself you are NOT hungry.

Think of how awful you feel about yourself now. How much worse are you going to feel after your binge? You'll be filled with regret, disgust, and self-hatred.

Drink tons of water and herbal tea.

Use hunger as an alarm or reminder to do something else. When I feel hungry, it reminds me to go drink another cup of tea. You could use this as a reminder to do anything: go read, walk around the block, do an exercise.

Look up thinspo and pro-ana material to remind yourself of your goals and why you started.

Think of your stomach growling as applause from your body or the sound of your stomach eating away fat.

Remember that cravings pass within minutes. Don't spend a day in regret for one minute of flavor.

Step on the scale and ask yourself if you want the number to go up even higher.

Anas are strong and in control! Never lose sight of your goals.

Spaghetti Squash

Since I've cut grains out of my diet, I'm always looking for ways to substitute it. Behold, spaghetti squash. When cooked, it resembles noodles! You can make pasta and hashbrowns with them. It weighs in at only 31 calories a cup. I even like it plain but you can cook or bake them in many different ways and add seasonings.

Recipe: 2-Ingredient Pancakes

Yields: 2 pancakes

Serving Size: 1 pancake 

Calories per serving: 95

Ingredients:

(1) egg 

(1) ripe banana 

Optional Flavorings:

Vanilla extract

Maple extract 

Cinnamon

1. Mash banana into paste with fork 

2. Whisk in egg 

3. Add flavorings if desired 

4. Pour half of mixture into pan and cook on medium-low heat. Flip when browned. Note that these take longer to cook than normal pancakes. Don't flip too soon or they'll fall apart. Repeat with second half of mixture. Yields two pancakes.

These are my most delicious recent discovery. They're sweet and taste like banana bread! They were also very filling. I don't eat grains so I try to find ways to substitute them with healthy options. I topped these with PB2 (45 additional calories). I recommend eating one pancake and saving the other for later, to stretch out your calorie intake

My Ana Rules

Clean Eating: What little you do put into your body should be real, whole food. Nothing artificial or processed. No added sweeteners or sugar. No white grains like white rice or white bread. No red meat like pork and beef. Load up on vegetables first and fruits second. 

Scheduling: Make a time you're going to stop eating every night. Mine is 8:00pm. When you eat late at night or close to bedtime, your body doesn't have time to burn those calories. If you have a stable enough life and can plan a time for when you eat every single day, go for it. 

Planning: Plan what you're going to eat the next day. If you have a plan and stick to it, you're less likely to binge and make mistakes. When you're hungry and looking at your options, you're way more likely to make a poor decision. Hungry thoughts aren't usually rational thoughts. Give yourself control by thinking ahead. 

Breakfast: Always eat breakfast! Your body and metabolism need that jump start. Keep your metabolism active and your day less sluggish by eating breakfast every day. Plan to eat most of your calories at breakfast so that you can use them as fuel and burn them off throughout the day. As the day goes on, eat less and less calories. Your breakfast should also be high in protein and fiber to keep you full and energized. 

Liquid Calories: Don't drink your calories. Not only is it way too easy to go overboard when you're drinking something, but your body uses less energy processing liquid calories. Digestion requires energy. Energy comes from calories. Make your body work to digest food. 

Water and Herbal Tea ONLY No diet drinks, as they contain artificial sweeteners like aspartame which is literally like liquid cancer. No juice because of the liquid calorie thing. Natural herbal tea not only makes you feel fuller, but most contain antioxidants and can boost your metabolism. Green tea is my preferred tea because it has caffeine that I need to get through the day. At night I switch to any random decaf herbal tea. Green tea is also famous for its metabolism-boosting properties. Make water your best friend. Drink a full glass before every single meal.  Your body needs fluids to flush out toxins, fuel your brain, feed your muscles and break down fat cells. It is your literal life source, the most important thing to your body. Make sure you're drinking eight glasses a day. I count tea in that number. You will be tired, sore, headachey, and hungry without enough water in your daily life. 

Frequent Meals, Smaller Portions: Its better to eat 5-6 small meals a day than 3 regular meals a day. Not only does this keep your metabolism active, but it keeps you from feeling hungry as often. Each meal, ideally, should be 100 calories or less. I exclude breakfast from this rule. 

Counting and Limiting Calories: Set a limit for yourself. My ideal daily limit is 500 but my MAX limit is 800. Learn your serving size portions and calories. Google the calories in everything before you eat it to make sure. You'd be surprised at how many calories are in some "healthy" foods. 

Food Journal: Record what you ate at what time and how many calories were in it every single day. I also record my morning and night weight. Keeping track helps you keep control, just like planning does. You can also include things like where you were when you ate, why you chose that food, how you felt afterwards. If you struggle with binge urges, write down details about the binge or what you were feeling leading up to it. Use this to pinpoint your triggers and reasons behind your eating habits. 

Fasting

I'm here to tell you why I think fasting is more likely to set you up for failure and make you fat in the long run.

Metabolism- Eating regularly keeps it working hard and strong; meaning that it processes food through your body faster instead of trying to hold on to it. When you starve yourself, your metabolism slows down and tells your body that the next time it gets any food, it's gotta be extra stingy and store as much fat as it can. Your body thinks it's emergency time, that hungry times lie ahead and it's gotta prepare. You have to eat eventually, right? You need it to live and avoid the hospital. So keep your metabolism active for proper digestion otherwise that next inevitable meal is gonna be packing on more pounds than necessary.

Warning: Binge Risk! When you deprive yourself for days, your body and mind both go into a panicked state. You stop thinking clearly. You're probably going to get more emotional and cranky. These things all set you up to binge. Binging is obviously not something you want. Think of how far you've come and how disgusting you'll feel when you're finished stuffing your face and realize what you've done. Keep your body stable. Stay smart. Eat small amounts several times a day to prevent a breakdown.

Intro

Welcome to The Healthy Pro-Ana. This blog is mostly for me, but I also love helping people and sharing information. I will be sharing my Ana-friendly tips, recipes, advice, thoughts, as well as my daily stats. I originally started on Tunblr but that community now glorifies being fat so much that they literally delete simple photos of skinny women for "violating terms and conditions" because it might be "triggering or harmful". Since Tumblr is full of disgusting pro-obese material and teaches people that they should be content with their fat, I've moved to a safe place where I can truly express myself. In case you hadn't caught this yet: it's not okay to be fat unless you have a medical condition that makes it impossible for you to be anything else. Don't be gluttonous. Don't hide your body and your bones under pounds of fat! Let's make this beautiful journey to thinness together :)

My Stats as of 11/04/15:
Height: 5ft 7in
Starting Weight: 135lbs
Current Weight: 126lbs
Goal Weight #1: 115lbs
Ultimate Goal: to be decided